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so its may....WHOOOPY!!!!....todays roxannes bday so i think we're gonna party it up hahahaha....ok anyways my weekend was alright....on friday went to irvine spectrum with nadine..conceited...kryzl...tommy...and mac....yea we chilled there for awhile and watched TAKE THE LEAD...with my husband, Dante Basco. =).... anyways the movie didnt start till like 10 something and we were there pretty early soooooooooo....once again i went shoppping lol....i swear intervention! lol....but yea we just walked around and ran into PHU! at the food court cuz gay ass works there lol but he was off....anyways...we were reunited that night after not seeing eachother since graduation...gosh i hate him...we use to talk llike EVERY NIGHT!...but no hes too cool now lol jk....well he hoooked us up with extra large bacon cheese and ranch fries MMMMmm and of course we got our grub on...reminisced about high school days...which are always the best...and yea finally went to the movies....so yea that movie inspires me lol....i wanted to try out for common ground like awhile back but i was scared that i wouldnt make it...so i didnt...and after seeing that movie ...I SO WANT TO NOW!!!....well im gonna try out for groove 57 first and then yea do the damnn thing later.....and all the girls want a cotillion again too hahaha this time with all 5 us....gosh we're such dorks!!!...k well didnt get home till like freakin one and i was knocked out when i got home....next day: i was supposed to go to camarillio but uhhhh that didnt happen...i didnt wake up lol...so my brother and i jus went on a "date"...he took me to the mall...then to the spectrum AGAIN!!.....but this time i didnt buy anything =(......instead we ate at cheesecake factory and watched a movie again....THE WILD.....eh it was alright...not the best disney movie tho so eh ....what can you do?....i was supposed to go to chinks house for her lil bday thing but i wasnt able to cuz i didnt get home till like 12 something so yea...SORRY CHINK!!....anyways came home knocked out again lol...SUNDAY: sundays not important..well except i went to church but yea i dont like sunday...im out *Muahz*
QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Im twisted cuz one side of me is telling me that i need to move on and the other side i want to break down and cry" | |
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| aight so ever since i gave up myspace ive been trying to update this thing once in awhile. This weekend wasnt so bad...went to lancaster with my brother on friday and went to oxnard on saturday...whoppy right?....anyways sunday night meget and i got into another yet interesting argument....i dont know what to do with him anymore ....do you ever get to the point where your use to something that you just give up!...well thats where i am now....kinda....anyways i dont know how to handle my situation with my current boyfriend of mine...he says he loves me but i dont see it....am i just asking for too much ....or am i right to say that. Anyways this isnt our first argument about this situation....for some reason the topic always seems to reappear. I was close to breaking up with him again....I LOVE HIM but i cant get over the fact that he seems different...like hes not the same guy i fell in love with....i keep telling myself its just because hes busy....you know he has alot going on in his life that maybe im not a priority like he says i am....and thats all i wanted to know ....i jus wanted him to tell me im not a priority and i wouldnt have these high expectation of him trying to see me or getting a phone call from him every chance he gets....it hurts....sometimes i dont feel loved....and i always stop to think am i just thinking too much or could what im feeling be true. Honestly i have alot going on in my life as well that i dont need this kind of stress...schools bugging the shit out of me....i cant study cuz i have alot on my mind...and i need to get things straightened out before i do bad in nursing...and i dont want that!!....so i told myself this....just stop expecting...care, but dont care tooo much...what happens happens....if he doesnt change and show me that he loves me like he says he does....fine....cuz i know that that was the situation already....live life the way you need to....and if someone takes you by surprise....TAKE IT!.....other than that focus on whats important..and thats finish school!! | |
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| another not so productive day in the life of ME.....hMmm went to the cake store with mac today hahahah yea cake store....anyways went there then went to the block for a lil and now im at home all bymyself booooooored as hell....and yea i dont really wanna go out later but im plannin to go to friction with kryzl and tommy and meeting up cindy and raquel over there....good stuff....so yea i get to go dancing tonight....YAY....hMmm im kinda stressin over my exam on monday for anatomy...its a whole lot of studying and yea its a hard class....like really overwhelming....thats why i need tonight to calm down lol | |
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| im at school right now.....and im bored as hell. I was supposed to go home at 11:30 but i scheduled a tutoring session and now im waiting for a counselor meeting....so yea. Yesterday was fun tho....i spent time with my boyfriend after not seeing him for two weeks....he came around 12 and we just watched a movie and went to south coast plaza...you know to show him a real mall compared to san diego malls hehehe...but yea we went with cheryl and ryan and it was cool...kinda like a double date thing...anyways we didnt get to hang out that long because meget had to leave by 6 =(...it really sucks being in a long distant relationship because you dont get to see that person for awhile and when you do its for only a couple of hours....yea i miss him alot...hopefully i get to see him next weekend...if not oh well....i need to focus on anatomy anyways...its killing me so yea ...more studying for me | |
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| wow ok xanga.....havent been on this in awhile.....since ive banned myself from myspace i thought i should blog.....wow my last entry was 2004....just comes to show how much i go on this thing....hMmm well cheryl and i are going to disneylands bball game today so im just waiting for that....to top it off i have a freakin quiz for lab on tuesday and im trying to study but.....iono no luck. Alot of other things has happen within the past week.....alot of drama....things that arent even necessary but i guess thats jus part of life....meget and i are back together tho...so thats a good thing....6 months this month....amazing considering the fact that its a long distant relationship | |
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